The Lord’s
extravagant Love will always continue to move us along in the
greatest adventure of all…LIFE, even when our list of odysseys begins
with merely getting out of bed!
I recently urged a
good friend, who was, in her words, “in a funk and going to bed,” not to spend too much time with her head under the
covers because indeed, God could not use her there.
Guilty myself, I had to ask myself, "How often have I buried my head under the pillow?"
(Sometimes I still want to crawl under my quilt and stay there until the
Rapture!)
That "being in
a funky place" lesson returned home to me just last night when I shared a
poem I had written a few years ago with my teacher. He responded with how much
he liked the earlier work… “It was much more pleasant and
hopeful.” Yes, my
writing has been a cathartic purging of sorts that few people would enjoy. It’s
true of depressed, oppressed, repressed and suppressed people who live in dark
places where “Pleasantville” and the “City of Hope” seem illusive and life
seems to have dealt us another dead end. I am learning a truth for myself these
days, “Life has no dead
ends.”
I cannot deny the
search for ways out of my darkness has kept me plodding uphill, and I must
admit, I am so ready to traipse through a lush meadow!
When I think of such
a golden place, I am reminded of a relaxation technique I once used to help me
fall asleep when insomnia was a frequent bedfellow. I don’t need those prompts
anymore since art, “the writing life” and my faith occupy my late nights now.
Here is one exercise that I fondly remember and helped me greatly.
“I closed my eyes and imagined being at a small cottage in
the middle of a wide open meadow….a rolling prairie kind of place with a
meandering brook and woods whose trees towered alongside the water’s edge to
shade an occasional picnic and a quick nap.
Once inside the cottage, I walked down a hallway to find my
room with windows all around the east and southern exposure, ready to welcome
the morning glints of sunlight. Bright white, loosely-woven curtains billowed
from a fresh breeze that was softly blowing from the open windows. During these
meditations, the prompter’s voice suggested that I get up to look out the
window and describe what I saw. There were tall, swirling grasses, or corn
stalks lush with pods ready for shucking, or fields of drenched sunflowers
dripping from sunshine as far as my eyes could see. It became a game as I
anticipated the view at the window sill, coppery, bronzed maize heads
"topping out" across the horizon or rows of “high cotton” towering
over my head! It seemed I could even smell fresh rain from storm clouds if I
saw them approaching!
My bed was a wrought iron bedstead that seemed oversized for
the room, but then again, maybe it was the freshly fluffed mattress, the
matching white chenille spread and the brightly colored pieces of an antique wedding
ring quilt lying over the foot that consumed the space. The prompter’s voice
instructed me to turn back the covers, tuck myself in and lay quietly until
Rest arrived, and I did this many times when I practiced the sleeping exercise.
My
eyes made a quick inventory of the room that included a large armoire staring
back from the far corner, a small reading lamp on an end table beside an empty
easy chair directly at my feet. I turned my head to the right and I saw
it…holding up the wall was a beautiful upright piano with its
manuscript propped in place and waiting to be played.
Over
time, a photo gallery of family and numerous friends decorated the top of the
piano. I traced the faces of my mother and other loved ones pictured there and
fingered the piano keys to pantomime a memorable recital or play my father’s
favorites. In my dreams, he relaxed in the chair as I played “Clair de Lune”
until he drifted into his Rest. Finally, the prompter’s voice guided me over to
a beautiful, very ornate frame placed on the table beside the chair. Before
picking it up, I sensed this was a picture of the most important person in my
life, the person I could trust above all others, my beloved, the one who loved
me most. I can still remember the shock and profound sadness when I saw that
the exquisite frame held no
one’s face…not even my own!”
While this was
merely a relaxation technique, I learned some valuable lessons when I analyzed
this for myself. This dream-like experience described a life that was filled with
GOOD things: a love of nature and God’s beauty, a safe and secure refuge,
cherished, sentimental possessions, talents and meaningful relationships that
created fond memories. My soul had painted a picture of an inner life that
placed greater value on people, places and things. Later I came to
understand these attachments as a form of worship, "idolatry,"
or a form of "spiritual adultery" that I had committed against the
True Lover of my soul.
I have wondered
about the Face of God as He might appear in the picture frame or what the CITY
OF HOPE will look like. There have been many artist’s interpretations of Christ
and renderings of the throne of God, but someday, as Revelation 22:4 declares, “They shall see His face, and His name
shall be on their foreheads.” God WILL have a face and I will most assuredly, fully know
the most important person in my life, Jesus Christ.
What I have
perceived as “dead-ends” have been God’s way to prove and test the genuineness
of my faith in Him. These seemingly dead-ends challenge me, “shake me awake,” and help me realize the relationships
I truly cherish. One of the most important lessons I am realizing is that there
are countless others in dark places searching for a life in PLEASANTVILLE. I
have been there. It is only a vacation destination and
truly, a dead end. Listen, trust and heed the guidance of the Prompter’s
Voice and you will find the CITY OF HOPE….
and hopefully, a
lush meadow or two along the way.
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May we put a picture of us in love in the frame with no face? You are my beloved and I am yours.
ReplyDeleteWilliam Word, Jr.
Your Gratefully Betrothed,
Until July 13th, 2013